I've surivied the first few weeks of this deployment with a little help from my friends! I enjoy the busy days and we find plenty of ways to fill them but the lonely nights are starting to get to me. Which leaves me with tons of time to think about things I either cant control or dont know the answers too. Im learning that patince is something that I have to learn to make for myself, its not something that we all have tons of to use all the time. Staying busy thats the main goal but for some reason this deployment is going by so slow! I love the time I get at the beach and Im having fun spending time in the gym, but what do I do when 900pm rolls around and everyone is at their own house and Im alone. Well lets see last time I was lonely I started thinking about how Im unhappy with the way things are going in life right now and how tired I am of being alone and a single parent most of the year. Im coming up on our 1 year of living in Hawaii and when I think back on the past year and everything that has happened. I think about how unhappy I have been in the last year. Im working on changing lots of different areas of my life. Im enjoying working out and zumba classes and I feel so much better during the day not to mention I wait the weight gone that I have let collect over the past few years. Then there is going back to school, I have one regret in life so far and its not finishing college while I was so close 4 years ago. I hate to say it but I think not finishing college plays a big part in my unhappiness, and I dont want to hold it against Geoff in anyway later on down the road. So Im going back to college to finish my psychology degree and the good thing is they have a great program at one of the schools here but the bad news is its going to take about 6-8 classes more than it would back home. Now if I can just get the finical aid situtaion worked out everything will be good to go. I dont like the idea of more student loans but we are not able to transfer Geoffs GI Bill over until he reaches 6 years. So Im thinking that a small student loan to cover this year isnt a bad idea if I wait any longer to start I wont finish before we leave the island.
I always have the love and wonderful company of my little monkey John. Hes such a great kid and learning so many new things. I cant believe all the words and phases he can say more clearly these days. Hes loving the short time he spends at the kids center everyday and he loves hanging his art projects on the fridge. Now if I can just get him on board for the potty training game we will be all set. I have a goal for him and I want him to be potty trained by the time Geoff comes home.
Ok back to how great my friends are :) They are a great group of ladies and I'm so happy and lucky to have them with me this summer. They keep me laughing, keep me grounded (when they can), motivate me, help me out with John, share secrets and sleepovers but most importantly they love me and all my flaws. These ladies keep me busy during the day and will cry with me at night. :) I am excited to see what the rest of our summer holds and all the great memories we will make together! Love you girls!
Til next time....
A
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Thursday, May 20, 2010
The journey begins.
We are starting another summer without Geoff home and its sad, hard and boring all at the same time. You would think by now I would be use to underways and deployments and doing things by myself. Not this time, for some reason this deployment started getting to me before it even started! I think back to this time last year and I have bitter sweet memories of the summer of 2009. We moved to Hawaii which was great but only to have Geoff leave me and John here alone to go back to Groton. I made great new friends when I got here but I lost some close friends too, ones I thought were my best friends and others who had to move away again. I miss my best Navy friend Jess V so much its not even funny. Anyone who knows me knows how much I hated living in CT its cold and rainy and New Englanders are rude and mean (Im use to the southern hospitality or something close to it) but at times I wish we were still there because I miss my friend like crazy. Last summer I had to learn some hard life lessons, that I wont replay on here. I love living here and everything about the island minus the traffic. Im a sun lover and the beach might just be my new best friend before long. As we apporach our 1 year anniversay on the island Im reminded about the hard times from last year, all the way down to all the lonely nights without Geoff. Most importantly Im reminded not to use myself is all the wife drama and craziness around me.
With that said, we are about to start a new chapter in our military life and Im super excited about it. The journey begins with Geoff leaving on his last deployment with this boat. We've had good and bad memories with this boat and alot of life lessons learned. I dont look forward to the long lonely nights and the days when John realizes daddy is gone on the boat to get the bad guys as he likes to say, but I just need to remember that at the end of the summer we will be on shore duty and things will start to get back to normal with him home all the time. My hopes for this summer are to make it through with no major issues and honestly Ill be happy if people outside of my close circle of friends leave be alone. Anyone who knows what its like to be a navy wife knows what I mean. I'm to old for the he said she said or the I dont like you this week or you stole my friend kind of drama. My new motto is "Get along or Move on!" Im thinking of getting it put on a shirt and wearing it around hahaha.
On a good note, my little guy is getting so big and learning so much so fast I cant believe hes already 2 years old! I love watching hum try to figure new things out and listening to him say some of the funniest things. Im gonna enjoy my time with him and my friends, Ive started a new workout routine and Im loving it again. I forgot how good it makes me feel when Im done at the gym and with my fun fun fun zumba!
Keep an eye out for more summer updates about the great things John and I will be doing.
* Remember to be yourself and others will enjoy you for just being you!*
With that said, we are about to start a new chapter in our military life and Im super excited about it. The journey begins with Geoff leaving on his last deployment with this boat. We've had good and bad memories with this boat and alot of life lessons learned. I dont look forward to the long lonely nights and the days when John realizes daddy is gone on the boat to get the bad guys as he likes to say, but I just need to remember that at the end of the summer we will be on shore duty and things will start to get back to normal with him home all the time. My hopes for this summer are to make it through with no major issues and honestly Ill be happy if people outside of my close circle of friends leave be alone. Anyone who knows what its like to be a navy wife knows what I mean. I'm to old for the he said she said or the I dont like you this week or you stole my friend kind of drama. My new motto is "Get along or Move on!" Im thinking of getting it put on a shirt and wearing it around hahaha.
On a good note, my little guy is getting so big and learning so much so fast I cant believe hes already 2 years old! I love watching hum try to figure new things out and listening to him say some of the funniest things. Im gonna enjoy my time with him and my friends, Ive started a new workout routine and Im loving it again. I forgot how good it makes me feel when Im done at the gym and with my fun fun fun zumba!
Keep an eye out for more summer updates about the great things John and I will be doing.
* Remember to be yourself and others will enjoy you for just being you!*
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